Yes, tis I, the ghoster. To the two people who consistently follow my blog, I’m terribly sorry that I haven’t posted in so long. This semester was quite possibly the most hectic 4 months of my life. If someone asked me to describe this first third of 2018 in 500 words or less, I could do it in 1: whirlwind.
I made a hugely passive mistake when I nonchalantly prayed for peace, because God gave me lots of opportunities this semester to exercise exactly that. I think God looked down on me that night as I laid in bed, naively going through the motions of my nightly prayer, saying the Christian things like, “thank You so much for this beautiful day,” “I just pray that I show You to my peers through my actions,” and “please teach me peace in the midst of trials,” and thought:
You know what Em? I think I will help you learn peace this year.
and then leaned over to one of His angels and said something like:
Hey Gabriel, watch this it’s gonna be hilarious.
and then proceeded to place me into the most challenging semester of my college career, gave me the task of planning a trip to a third world country, let me decide to create an entire research project and then translate it into Swahili, and chose to tell me that this was the year that I should move out of my apartment to give myself room to grow.
Moral of the story-
Don’t pray for something if you don’t actually mean it, because God will deliver in a HUGE way.
I have definitely learned a thing or two about keeping your heart peaceful when all around you seems like a raging sea.
Not a literal sea, my heart would definitely not be peaceful in a literal raging sea. Not there yet.
But in the sea of life, I’d like to think I’m a little better now at knowing that God controls it all, and I control nothing.
And knowing that the Creator of the universe is in control, and not little ol’ me, is a really comforting thing to rest in. To find peace in.
We all have times in our lives when a whirlwind hits and it seems like there’s no way out. In those moments, it’s important to remember that God has it all in his hands. Rest in that. Find peace in that. I do.